Wow! I’m finally turning 30 *gasp*…..in 30 days!
I’m not quite sure what I’m supposed to feel like or whether other people go through this….but when I think about turning 30, I get this slight apprehension! I’m not too sure what it’s about, but I think something about turning 30 makes me think about my life in an introspective kinda way, and also somewhat brings up big questions like “What have I done with my life”, “What do I wanna do with the rest of my life”, “30, now what”…..and of course the big question “I’m turning 30, what am I doing to celebrate” ?.
I dunno man, but I’m just feeling like something must happen…it just feels like a big moment, but at the same time, I don’t want to succumb to pressure to “do something” because that’s what people do to celebrate. But I definitely feel like it’s a big moment to be celebrated….we’ll see……there’s a whole 30 days to think about it (This is the story my life….I love celebrations but it hardly ever works out…..I think I have time to think of what I want to do and time goes by, and when the day gets here, I’m bummed because time has run out and I sit there bored and thinking about what I could’ve done if only I’d had the time….then I promise myself I’ll do something in time the following year ?….and then….)
Aaaanyway……one thing I have decided to do is to write “30 thoughts before I turn 30”
Why? Why not? Haha! Writing is one of the things I’d like to do more of. I often want to write but never make the time….so it’ll be a nice challenge for me……..and maybe it’s also something that’ll make me feel like I’m “doing something” ?…to be present in this moment.
I look forward to seeing what I’ll write about ??. It’ll be random thoughts really….not necessarily themed or on any specific thing……ok….so let’s see how it goes yeah?
UPDATE: Sooooo….I didn’t quite see the 30 thoughts to the end *krrkrr* ….ended up doing 7….but that’s something, right? *hides* (I actually had a lot of thoughts but just didn’t make the time to construct them :/…but will share some of them randomly anyway).